Devotional for Women in Recovery — When You’re Counting Days and Shame Is Counting Your Failures

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Devotional for Women in Recovery

When You're Counting Days and Shame Is Counting Your Failures

A daily page for the voice that calls you by a different name.

A 140-Day Reflective Devotional Journal

Book 55 of a 70-journal series · 140 daily reflections · 9,800 guided prompts across the series

  • 140 daily reflections
  • Scripture + guided journaling space
  • Written for women in recovery
  • Five honest minutes a day
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If a pin brought you here — the page you glimpsed is one of 140. Each day is the same quiet shape: a few honest lines, a verse, and space to write. The sample pages below show exactly how it works.

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Why this is different

Most devotionals

  • Inspiration to read
  • Reading only
  • Generic encouragement
  • Read once, then forgotten

This journal

  • A daily practice you actually do
  • Reflection + Scripture + writing space
  • Written specifically for women in recovery
  • 140 steady days that build over time

Who it's for

This is for

  • The woman God is calling beloved.
  • Anyone who wants structure without pressure
  • Small groups, church families & gift-givers

This is not for

  • Anyone wanting a quick, read-once motivational book
  • Readers who don't want to write anything down
  • Those after a study guide without daily reflection
Not ready today? Begin with our free seven-day devotional — slow, scripture-anchored, in your inbox. A quiet place to start before the 140 days. Get Day One →

An established series

70journals in the series
140days in each
9,800guided reflections
5–10minutes a day

Part of a growing library of guided devotional journals from Stilling Waves Press.

About this journal

The full story, in our own words

A 140-day devotional for women rebuilding a sober life one honest morning at a time — a daily place to reflect, write, and pray beside the God who never left.

For Women in Recovery — Strength for Sobriety. Each day sits beside a quoted line from a Christian writer across the centuries — kept in their own voice, with a quiet word-gloss underneath so the older language opens rather than closes.

  • A daily page for the morning after the craving, when staying clean costs more than anyone sees.
  • Five honest minutes a day — no slogans, just you, this page, and the God who stayed.
  • For the woman in recovery who is learning that sober and loved can be true on the same day.

Seven stages across 140 days: Stage 1 — God Opens the Day · Stage 2 — Letting Go Without Force · Stage 3 — Following Him Step by Step · Stage 4 — Kept Going by God — The Middle · Stage 5 — Closer to Him · Stage 6 — The Turn · Stage 7 — Belonging to Him.

Anchored by seven small images you will half-recognise from the start: a dawn, open hands, a lamp, a mountain, a vine, a stream, an open door. One quiet picture per stage, gently signposting the journey home.

Inside these pages you will also find:

  • Seven things on every day's page — an Opening line. A Reflect question. A Rest cue for the body. A Today's Focus. A Touch line. A quoted Scripture or Christian writer with a word-gloss. A closing Meditation. The same seven elements, every day, for 140 days.
  • Older language, opened in real timethy becomes your. Thee becomes you. Every classic line — Scripture in older translation, devotional prose from earlier centuries — carries a small plain-English gloss directly underneath. Nothing is left for the reader to puzzle out.
  • Real names, never anonymous — every quoted line is attributed — drawn from a curated corpus of Christian writers across the centuries and chosen to fit each journal's shape. The voices are named, the sources are known, and the corpus is wider than any single tradition.
  • Liturgical interludes between stages — between the seven sections, the journal slows. A Commentary. A Poem. A Prayer for This Season. A closing Reflection. Real rhythm — not page numbers.
  • Borrowed prayers, and yours — selected prayers from saints and faithful authors carry you forward, while A Prayer for This Season pages hold space for the words that are only yours to write.
  • One poem per section — short, unhurried passages between stages — small enough to memorise, deep enough to keep returning to.

Sample prompt: "What is one small thing you stayed sober for today, even when the old voice told you it would not matter?"

Most devotionals push you to do more. This one settles you into what is already true.

You know the morning of an anniversary — the one no one is sending cards for, the one only you and a few people know to count? Underneath is a quieter question — about whether the person you are becoming is the same person you have spent so long fighting to keep alive. This journal sits with that quieter question. Five honest minutes a day, before the meeting or after the meeting or instead of the meeting. The work you have done is not erased. It is the ground a different kind of standing begins from.

A daily page for the voice that calls you by a different name. Written for the woman God is calling beloved. Open to day one.

What’s inside every day

The same daily rhythm on every page: opening line, reflect question, rest cue for the body, today's focus, touch line, attributed quote with gloss, and a closing meditation.
Older Scripture and classic prose come with a small plain-English gloss directly underneath — thee, thou, unto — opened, not assumed.
Every devotional line is attributed, drawn from a curated corpus of trusted Christian voices across the centuries.
Between each of the seven stages, a Commentary, a Poem, an A Prayer for This Season page, and a closing Reflection.

Same daily rhythm, 140 days. One steady shape you learn once.

How it will feel

You do not have to solve your whole life today. Just today. Sleep tonight. A rested brain resists more easily. Rest. Recovery is real work. The body and brain need healing time. You can call the sponsor. That is not weakness. That is the design. Breathe. One hour at a time — when that is all there is. Quiet the shame about yesterday — yesterday is closed. Lay down the burden of the long view — today is the whole assignment. Peace for the one fighting the craving today — and winning by sitting here.

You breathe out without noticing you were holding it. You carry what you are carrying without flinching. The doubts come and you do not have to fight them. You say what you actually feel the first time. You fall asleep without running through what might go wrong. Nothing dramatic. A hundred and forty days of showing up.

Built to form you — not just inspire you

Not Inspiration — Formation

This is not a devotional to read when inspired — it is a daily practice to return to regardless. Real faith is built through structured daily formation, not occasional motivation. Finishing this journal produces something that starting ten others cannot.

What This Journal Returns You To

  • The relationships you damaged are not all beyond repair
  • The person you are becoming is being given back to you
  • Notice which relationships pull you backward

Sample prompt: "What would it look like to someone has shown up for you — in the recovery, not just in the old life?"

A thoughtful gift

What this journal offers a friend is presence, not pressure. 140 days of gentle company that does not require them to be ready, only willing — the rare kind of gift that holds space rather than fills it. The sober version of you is the truest version of you — and God is building that version. What the addiction tried to make permanent, God is making into testimony.

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About this journal’s author

Hayley Louisa Mark is the pen name under which Stilling Waves Press writes its reflective journals. The voice is quiet on purpose: these pages draw on Scripture and the older contemplative writers — Andrew Murray, François Fénelon, Thomas à Kempis — slowly read and set into a 140-day daily practice. Sixty-six journals share the same method: five honest minutes a day, one season at a time.

Published by Stilling Waves Press, creator of the 140-Day Reflective Devotional Series. Our journals are designed to be completed, not merely read — combining Scripture, reflection, and guided writing into a daily spiritual practice.

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